So Ill be the blog writer, observing others who might not think their life is blog-worthy...maybe a life is only interesting if someone intercepts it with commentary or direction or purpose. Maybe like everyone has a twin somewhere in the world...everyone has a personal blogger....think about it. :)
I initially wrote that above paragraph to be silly, but the more I read it, I have found some meaningful tid-bits in it. But if not, I blame Caribou Coffee, where I sat with a pen and scrap paper from a friend's journal because I brought nothing to read or write with. I had to make do for a couple hours and realized I haven't thought creatively in some time. And coffee houses just bring out that side of me I guess.
I have been craving a good blog entry for sometime, but similar to picking up a pencil and sketching a beautiful piece of work, you have to be in the right mood to write something subscribe-able.
April has been soooooo crazy. I just got back from Alexandria MN where the crusade staff has a "relaxing" and "refreshing" conference. However, it really came at the worst time. We drove 6 hours to get there and being the first days of May, the weather was cold, windy, and wet. At one point, my friend Tanya and I tried to get a good run in, and we had to push through a fierce wind that nearly knocked us right over. In that process I think I did something weird to my right knee. The conference came at the wrong time because I leave for North Myrtle Beach, SC in 2 weeks from today, and have lists upon lists of things to do. I'm crunched for time and feeling the weight of finishing the year off well. I don't really mean to complain. I did take some good messages away from the conference this weekend. I need to bring my present reality into the presence of God, because he can change a present reality at anytime. Also, regardless of past experience, I must believe his promises. Sarah laughed when God told Abraham she would have a son in her old age, because her past experience told her otherwise. But His promise was that they were to be ancestors of the nation. Sarah's present reality was that she was old and past child barring age, but God can change her present reality in an instance. Abraham stood in God's presence and believed in his promise.
So what that led me to do was think of what promises I wasn't believing, and I also asked myself what my present reality was and if I was bringing that into God's presence.
I got back from the conference at 330am and couldn't sleep at all. Everything was running through my mind like a stampede of bulls. So one by one, I was releasing my hands from what I had to get done and complete well in the next 2 weeks, and handing them over to God who would do a much better job. I wasn't believing that He cared for me in the little things (that I had made the big things)... I came into his presence and all else become much smaller... myself included. And I drifted off to sleep.
Most days I take pride in my ability to adapt to sudden changes, take on a long list of to-dos and smile through it all. But I was sure fooling myself. And when you stare your pride right in the face it's rather humiliating. I still have a lot to do, but, I have to remember, I am a helper of my Guide, my God. It was never my burden to bear.
So what that led me to do was think of what promises I wasn't believing, and I also asked myself what my present reality was and if I was bringing that into God's presence.
I got back from the conference at 330am and couldn't sleep at all. Everything was running through my mind like a stampede of bulls. So one by one, I was releasing my hands from what I had to get done and complete well in the next 2 weeks, and handing them over to God who would do a much better job. I wasn't believing that He cared for me in the little things (that I had made the big things)... I came into his presence and all else become much smaller... myself included. And I drifted off to sleep.
Most days I take pride in my ability to adapt to sudden changes, take on a long list of to-dos and smile through it all. But I was sure fooling myself. And when you stare your pride right in the face it's rather humiliating. I still have a lot to do, but, I have to remember, I am a helper of my Guide, my God. It was never my burden to bear.
